Coming Home Again.

December 17, 2014


I’m celebrating my 6- week surgery-versary. It doesn’t sound like a much time, but feels like ten times that. I’m progressing surprisingly well, though everyday continues to be filled with monitoring and problem solving. Once I go the A.O.K from my surgeon, I packed up my colostomy bags and pointed my steering wheel due-west. I […]

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Clarity of Gratitude.

December 2, 2014


I love me some Thanksgiving. It’s far and away my favorite holiday. Despite the euro-centric fallacies force-fed to us through grade-school textbooks and cutesy craft projects surrounding the “first thanksgiving,” I’m on board with a holiday whose mission is to gather with your loved ones, cook a good meal, and simply give thanks for being […]

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Pocket of Joy.

November 24, 2014


Over the course of these past couple weeks, I’ve slowly improved to become slightly useful… unless you count forming an exact imprint of my body in my brother’s couch cushions as a purpose, then I’ve been hard at work. Encouragingly, each day seems to be driven by little victories; a collection of individual grains of […]

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November 13, 2014


I’m currently sitting on my brother’s couch in Solon, Iowa, pooping out of my stomach, bleeding into a clear-plastic grenade; my butt-hole sewn completely shut… never in a million years would I be thankful for this current situation. I think it was Steven Segal that said, ‘the anticipation of death is scarier than death itself.’ […]

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The Beauty of Cancer.

October 31, 2014


It’s hard not to feel like I’m staring down the barrel of a gun; as if someone is watching you just beyond your eye’s reach. Next Wednesday, November 5, I’ll head into the operating room for a six-hour surgery and week of subsequent recovery in the hospital. Aside from the veil of cancer filtering my world, it’s been a […]

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October 4, 2014


Over the course of the last few weeks, I’ve been feeling better. I’ve got much of my energy back, at least during the days, though I still crash at the end of the day and I found that if I string together too many consecutive days of business, I need a day to recharge. All that […]

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Clouds Lifting.

September 7, 2014


Dawn is breaking through the cracks between my bedroom shades. I’m officially one week out of my chemo/radiation treatments and the brightening transition away from the depths of midnight black to daylight blues echoes much of my recent experiences this past week. Morning is one of my favorite times of day; the world is calm, […]

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